Gen Sin

I have realized in the last few weeks that I have some generational sin ("gen sin" - it's a cute rhyme but an ugly disease I will be glad to be rid of once we reach Glory!) I need to deal with and allow God to remove.  I am not saying "generational sin" to avoid taking responsibility for this sins, I am just recognizing that the sins I am battling have been battled by other women in my family. Maybe I can be part of their healing, too.


*Anxiety - Lack of trust. Lack of trust that God is in control.

*Fear - So much here I could expound on. From simple fear that is linked with anxiety to the crazy fear that causes me to wake up screaming because I have "seen" things in my bedroom or had a terrifying nightmare, that yes, at nearly 30 years old I am still plagued by almost nightly.

*Lack of Self-Discipline/Self-Control - This is a fruit of the Spirit which I really don't see evidence of in my life. I don't stick with anything and even when I have the thought "I should really be doing X" my slothful nature wins.

*Poor Self-Image/Don't take care of my body - I am made in the image of my Creator and my body is to be a temple for the Holy Spirit. Uhhh. You would not know that by my lack of willingness to do little things to take care of it.

I'm sure there are more...but here's what I've recognized so far and what I am going to start praying through and seeking counsel on. My God is mighty to save and I know He is sanctifying me and will complete this work He began. Jesus came to give me abundant life - that means a life free from slavery to sin here and eternal glorious life with Him. I am tired of being a slave to these sins. Praying now for Him to work - because I can't change any of those things on my own.

My intent in this blog in general really wasn't to be whiny...but to have a chance to be real and hopefully see God to big things. I am incredibly appreciative of the comments and encouragement many of you (especially my sweet cousin) have given me along this journey. I know these sins are not unique to me or my family...so if any of you have specific scriptures that come to mind in battling this issues please share :-)

xoxo,
Hope


He is my strength for today and bright HOPE for tomorrow...