I managed to do ZERO P90X workouts in the last 2 weeks. AH-mazing. I have run several times with and without my husband. WHY!?! Why can't I stick with this? Starting fresh later today. Picking up where I should be...not backing up to what I missed. We'll see if that works.
And on a side note: I have deleted my last post because I'm afraid it was a bit melodramatic and I apparently did not convey things well. I am not doubting my salvation. I am frustrated that I am not as "spiritual" as others or as I would like to be. And I have no power on my own to fix that. And that frustrates me.
I also struggle with whether or not God will actually answer my prayers. I have a skewed view of him (*ahem* I have discussed this at length with some of you) as having favorites and acting accordingly. I know this is FALSE. However, I have had this view reinforced through several Christian leaders who show favoritism. Leaders that I trust/trusted. Yes. I am comparing God to fallen humans...but it's my frame of reference, and I'm working on it.
That being said, I had a wonderful time in prayer this morning and am thoroughly enjoying studying Hebrews.
Thursday, March 17, 2011
Sunday, March 6, 2011
Week 2 Update
Well. Week 2 came and went with a flurry. I did not see much moving on the scale...but I'm ok with that. I did something* all but 1 day this week. Twice I ran a mile and half instead of P90X.
Friday I made a poor choice and had a chocolate shake with lunch, and then had a margarita with chips and queso after 2 pieces of pizza and innumerable handfuls of kettle corn at a work function. Yep. You read all of that correctly.
It is so weird to me that I am a CONTROL FREAK in all other areas of my life. To the point my husband gets very frustrated with me. YET I cannot seem to control my eating . WHY!?! WHY!?! WHY!?! That doesn't make sense. What is going on subconsciously that I can't get a grip on living healthy?
Today is Sunday, and I just started Week 3 of P90X. I didn't do today's specific workout because I wanted to do Kenpo, which was one of the exercises I skipped this week.
Friday I made a poor choice and had a chocolate shake with lunch, and then had a margarita with chips and queso after 2 pieces of pizza and innumerable handfuls of kettle corn at a work function. Yep. You read all of that correctly.
It is so weird to me that I am a CONTROL FREAK in all other areas of my life. To the point my husband gets very frustrated with me. YET I cannot seem to control my eating . WHY!?! WHY!?! WHY!?! That doesn't make sense. What is going on subconsciously that I can't get a grip on living healthy?
Today is Sunday, and I just started Week 3 of P90X. I didn't do today's specific workout because I wanted to do Kenpo, which was one of the exercises I skipped this week.
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